Counting sins with the devil.
A desperate demon in tow.
With easy fear and little hope.
That corner of the eye foe.
Does his worst in full, rounded bouts.
Pockmarked with ill will and lust.
The bevelled edge of infinite doubts.
And tiny screams falling short of the dust.
A little bit I guess. She doesn’t speak to me anymore, because in all honesty I was a bad friend. I just couldn’t see it at the time. My ex-girlfriend wasn’t comfortable with my relationship with my friend, and she wanted me to distance myself from her. So I, being a fool who wanted to make her happy, did that. I wasn’t choosing my ex over my friend… I just figured my ex would get over it, and eventually trust me more, and things could go back to normal. But it was too late, the damage was done. So yeah, I miss her, and that’s not fun, but I mainly just need a hug because I always feel low in winter :/
Not much currently. Just trying to not get too down over Christmas. I always get low this time of year. Next year is going to be awful hectic and stressful, and the anticipation of that is not helping my mood. Just trying to stay positive.
Yeah, it tends to be about my lack of resolve and self discipline. It’s the thing I hate most about myself. It’s the thing I always end up writing about… my struggle to overcome it.
I could do with a hug right now actually yeah :/
It’s my pleasure. Yeah that would be ok, i’ll take a look :)
I know! But I have zero cash :/ DBL TKE is still there. Just at http://dbltke.tumblr.com
Reading. I don’t read nearly as much as I should do nowadays. But I used to read a lot, at quite informative ages, and I’d read my mums books, so I think that’s where I developed my vocabulary. So all I can suggest is read more :s
And as for finding the right word, sometimes the most obvious, or simple word, is precisely the right word for what you’re trying to say. We often feel the need to mix up the language we use or use a less common word of phrase for something. You don’t need to do this. When you’re trying to think of how to say something, put it in the simplest terms. Then think about what it is you’re saying as opposed to how you’ve said it. I think visually and metaphorically about the very straightforward concept I have in my mind. And that informs the picture i want to paint. Which helps me decide what words to use.
I don’t know if that makes any sense but that’s how i do it I think. But like I say in my description, when I think too much about it, I’m always less happy with it.
I find it difficult to justify to myself writing for fun when i have work to get done. And i’ve had so much work due. Maybe now it’s christmas I’ll write some more :)
I know when I’m writing about real things. Sometimes, perhaps my descriptions or the tone of the piece are subconsciously influenced by how I’m feeling. So maybe sometimes how I’m feeling can come through in what I write. But that’s only I’m just writing anything that randomly comes to mind. I’m pretty aware of what I’m trying to say when I have decided to actually write about a topic that means anything to me. It’s almost always the same topic too.
My love of words I guess. Most of what I write is just me playing with my vocabulary, and I like to paint pictures with words. Very little of what I write has real meaning behind it. When it does I don’t like it as much :/